Why does this keep happening?

Why is it that every so often without provocation I hate my life and want to die?????? Just a curious 51 year old recovering alcoholic / addict asking!!!?

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Extremely Late SoCS 10/7/17 – Save/Safe

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This is an extremely late entry into Linda G. Hill’s SoCS for 10/7/2017.

My disclaimer for my lateness is that on Saturday and Sunday we had volunteers and contractors here from the City of San Antonio Office of Historic Preservation and the Students Together Achieving Revitalization with students from The University of Texas at San Antonio’s College of Architecture  and students from San Antonio College doing minor reservations and painting our house and our next neighbors house who is 80 years old, I have been doing her lawn maintenance for over 16 years.

The first four pictures of the house are the before pictures, the last three are the after pictures after day one.

That being said sometimes a huge save comes into your life or a huge save is removed from your life that will keep you safe as long as you allow it too. No this is not riddle, I received a save when after earning (3) points having one absence on 8/25/17 due to throwing out my lower back; leaving work at 2pm on 9/12/17 and being out on 9/13/17 and getting a doctor’s note because of extreme pain that intensified when I inhaled – turned out being a bruised rib in my back; and leaving at noon on 10/4/17 with doctor’s orders to be out on 10/5 and 10/6 with abdominal pain and diarrhea which turns out I had viral gastroenteritis which is highly contagious from what the doctor says.

You the save came when I received notification that because I reached three points in my 90 day probationary period I was terminated from Unifirst Corporation, where I was an outbound appointment setter calling businesses to get the sales representatives foot in the door at businesses across the country. I was not very good at it and I did not receive the full tools that I needed to perform the job, even while reaching out to my boss several times. I say that this save will keep me safe because I was becoming extremely stressed and we all know that for a recovering alcoholic / addict stress is a huge TRIGGER.

JUST FOR TODAY, I WILL REMAIN CLEAN AND SOBER!!!!

This is what is in “My Rattled Cage”.

SoCS 9/30/17 – Do/Dew/Due

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This post is part of Linda G. Hills SoCS!

The dew on the grass is glistening as I drink my coffee on the porch. I have so much to do today starting with walking my seven four legged babies in the order they became part of our pack – Tippy, Chrissy, Little Bitty (the granddaughter), Zailey, Sadie and Stitchy Jr. (sister and brother rescues), and Tippy.

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Then I will do some yard therapy. Finally, I must do the paying of the bills because they are due!!

SoCS 9/16/17 – Evolving

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This post is a late submission for SoCS 9/16/17 -VOL

 

So on Thursday September 14th I turned 51. For my One Liner Wednesday post I stated that  after my crappy 50th year, I hoped that my 51st year would be one hell of a lot better. How will that happen? I have remind myself daily that as a recovering alcoholic and recovering cocaine addict I am constantly evolving.

Part of the process of evolving is making sure that I remember to stay away from the 3 “P’s” – people, places and things that cause those triggers to come to the surface. I always tell my husband that I am and always will be a work in progress. There will never be a time when I will not be evolving.

JUST FOR TODAY I WILL REMAIN CLEAN & SOBER!!!

That is what is My Rattled Cage!!!